tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34678221475866313552024-03-13T15:57:45.813-04:00Simply Dori..."Because the journey is the worthier part..."Dorihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17258322944946475959noreply@blogger.comBlogger861125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467822147586631355.post-11859710771322506652017-04-05T22:31:00.000-04:002017-04-05T22:31:21.328-04:00For Sammy...I'm not ready to sleep. To close my eyes and open them on the day we lost you. I don't want to write that it's been a year. You've been gone a year. Every memory after today is including a time you weren't there.<br />
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I'm told I should be handling this better. My grief should be lessing. Some are losing patience with me. But, the truth is, some days it is better. And then a memory eases in and I'm a Hot Mess in zero to 60...<br />
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I miss you every day. Most days I breath. Some days I struggle with just that. Breathing.<br />
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If only saving you had been as simple as ensuring you were wearing proper safety equipment for whatever adventure we were embarking on when you were a year old...<br />
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But Life. And we failed you. I failed you. And we've lived a whole year without you. And I never got to say goodbye...</div>
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For the past year people have been asking how we're doing. For various reasons. Because it's been a shitty, trying year. They've asked how my sister's doing. How my husband is doing. How my daughter is doing.<br />
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We're good. They're ok. He's good. I'm good. I'm good...<br />
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In all of the moments I had to remind myself to breathe. I'm good. I'm good...<br />
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I haven't written about our sweet Sammy because it's still too raw. Too open. One day I will. But not now. So, when asked? I'm okay. I'm good...<br />
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Our baby girl's arthritis has flared up with such a vengeance her one medication is no longer keeping it under control. She was prescribed another, and it was useless. So now she's on another. The one we never wanted to see because we know it. We know the effects it has on her dad. The life it takes away. But it also shuts down the disease. Giving her back use of her wrists. Allowing my precious 9-year-old daughter to write, and scamper across the monkey bars. So our plan has been that she takes the medication on a Friday night. Time for her to sleep through the worse of the side effects, and a weekend to get over the rest. She's good. We're good. I'm good...<br />
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She's in therapy once a week...switching off between counseling and occupational. Head, sensory, and body. She's good...<br />
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Winter arrived in full force a few days ago. I was raised in the tropics. I'm miserable in the cold, and this morning we were at 0 degrees F. Old house. Old windows. Old heat system. All I want to do is drink hot tea and hibernate. But I remember a few years ago when that heat system broke. So even bundled up, knowing there is actually heat coming from the vents...I'm good.<br />
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It's been a year of talking myself into getting out of bed each morning. Checklists throughout the day, the week. Get outta bed. Check. Get the kids to school. Check. Make it to work--on time. Check. Get the girl from school. Check. Go over homework with the boy. Check. Get everyone to bed. Check. Sit. Breathe. Get myself to bed. Check.<br />
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And wake up knowing we made it through the day before. We'll make it through today. And we're good. We'll be okay.<br />
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It's been a hard week. We had a bit of dust-up, election wise. Can't honestly say that anyone Won, really. Our little city has managed to not-so-peacefully assemble and protest. </div>
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I'm supposed to be on my way back from Turkey right now. Actually, I should have arrived home this morning. But our trip was canceled just over two weeks before departure. Because reasons. </div>
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I can't recall the names of politicians and rulers throughout history. Or all whys and reasons for the countless wars. But I remember the names of artists. And I vividly recall their greatest, and not so greatest, works. Art has always had healing powers for me. Today was no exception. </div>
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It was a year filled with adventure, new things, old things, comfort stretching things, lovely things, and hard things.<br />
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Both kiddos finished up challenging school years on high notes. Summer shenanigans were well deserved!<br />
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The summer was spent teaching our children how to cook, how to work the washing machine...<br />
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The girl's room underwent a complete make-over. I only teared up for the first bit--painting over the mural I had previously painted...<br />
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There was a week spent between a massive water park and an even more massive amusement park. Both kiddos rode their first roller coasters! The boy hit the height limit on every single one--so he rode every single one. Multiple times. Never have I been more grateful for friends who love roller coasters so he never rode alone!<br />
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Comic Con came to our city once again...this time we attended as Time Lords and their TARDIS. I had an epic run-in (my face colliding with his chest epicness) with John Schneider. Twice. My inner 15-year-old was all a twitter. <br />
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The boy was suspended for two days due to a knee-jerk reaction from school administrators. Once the whole, un-edited story was in, the suspension was overturned. But not without eggy faces and lost trust. And a renewed knowledge that <b>We</b> are our children's greatest advocates.<br />
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The girl spent six months as the face of juvenile arthritis, rounding out her year as the National Arthritis Foundation's 2015 Jingle Bell Run's youth honoree...<br />
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Helix T. Bombdog retired. And is enjoying his brand new life as a family doggie. As are we all!<br />
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17 years of weddedness was celebrated. Quietly, and not in the hospital! Because, for while there, it looked like we might be doing just that.<br />
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I soaked in our unseasonably warm Christmas. Ahhh....<br />
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44 years of my own life on this planet was celebrated by three generations watching <i>The Force Awakens</i>. And a gluten free brownie cake created by my mom and my daughter...<br />
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And, for the first time in 13 years, New Year's Eve with my love. At home, with our children, but still together.<br />
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Then we survived the 100 year storm...Jonas 2016!<br />
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So now, my lovelies...onwards.<br />
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<a href="http://www.mylivesignature.com/" target="_blank"><img src="http://signatures.mylivesignature.com/54487/173/A293E85F525854CCB3B726089B0EB486.png" style="background: transparent; border: 0;" /></a>Dorihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17258322944946475959noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467822147586631355.post-83757766570168299182016-02-12T19:39:00.003-05:002016-02-12T19:39:46.830-05:00Waiting. Breathing. Kyleigh has a new favorite movie--<i>Mr. Magorium's Magic Emporium</i>. We were watching it again tonight and there's a part in it where Mr. Magorium and Molly (his assistant) change all of the clocks in a clock shop to just before 12...<br />
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Mr. Magorium: 37 seconds.<br />
Molly: Great. Well done. Now we wait.<br />
Mr. Magorium: No. We breathe. We pulse. We regenerate. Our hearts beat. Our minds create. Our souls ingest. 37 seconds, well used, is a lifetime.<br />
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Decisions have been made. Forward steps put into motion. But now there's Waiting. And what do we do in the Waiting? We can wait. Or we can breath. Pulse. Regenerate. Create. I'm choosing to breath.<br />
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But here's the thing. My regrets aren't my Nots. My regrets are my Should Haves. I should have been more Kind. I should have been more Particular. I should have thought that one through just a little more. I should have listened, and followed through when a friend needed a friend. But I remember those Should Haves. And I stand on them, grow from them. Become a Better Person because of them.<br />
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Our little family is facing Big Change. Change that is way ahead of schedule. I'm not prepared for this. I'm completely fine with change. I happen to thrive in the chaos. What I'm <i>not</i> fine with is the Unsettlement of the Unknown. Because I don't even know where to start with that.<br />
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I've recently started gathering with a very small, close group of amazing women. Coming together once a month to talk, to encourage, to build up, and to support. Earlier this week we were talking about the things we're Waiting for, and what do we do in the Waiting.<br />
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I have just enough British in my upbringing that has trained me to lace up my boots and Carry On. Because in the midst of the Waiting? Life continues. Children still need to get to school in the morning. I have an employer who still assumes I'll show up every day. Groceries still need to be purchased. Lunches made. Life carries on. Oddly enough.<br />
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Earlier in December, <a href="http://iaimtomisbehave.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">Himself</a> was in the hospital for a week recovering from surgery. Before heading out to spend the morning with him, I found myself at the grocery store. I had to check to make sure the store was open that early--because I'd never had reason to be there at that time, and I didn't know. My mom called to check on me, asking if I was at the hospital. I told her I was wandering around the grocery store. Because we were out of milk. Because, somehow, in the midst of our chaos, life was Carrying On.<br />
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A sweet friend sat with me this weekend and just talked. We talked about her stuff. And we talked about my stuff. Most of our friendship has been based on the fact that our boys are besties. Sometimes we dig deeper. This was one of those times. She listened. Then she said that maybe this was my chance to do things I always wanted to do. Change jobs. Be More. She knows some of my past. Bits. But I explained that I was already doing exactly what I wanted to do. I <i>was</i> what I wanted to Be when I grew up. And she looked kind of shocked. How could I not want More?<br />
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From the outside, it may look like I'm just biding my time. Waiting until the kids are more independent. But I'm not. No, my one job isn't perfect. But I enjoy it. Sure, I have co-workers I avoid. I shut my classroom door to close off everyone else. But I love my kiddos. The thing about being a preschool teacher is, I can clock out. And I get to be home with my own children when they're home. And I have creativity and energy left for my other jobs where I get to Create and Do. I'm content. I'm right where I want to Be. And, more importantly, I'm right where I know I'm supposed to Be. This is who I am.<br />
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But it's getting all shaken up. And everything may stay the same, or nothing may stay the same. I have no idea and that is what's tying my insides up in knots.<br />
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I should have had a back up plan.<br />
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And also? I should have kept up with writing. But in the past year? Life carried on. I'm determined to do better with documenting it.<br />
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I gotta tell ya...on paper? I'm pretty badass.<br />
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And my sleep anywhere superpower kicked in and I had a nice little 20 minute cat nap.<br />
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A couple of years ago when our ancient sewer pipes needed to be replaced? We knew we'd get through it, the money would be there, and we'd be Fine. And we did, it was, and we were.<br />
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Heat goes out? We bundle up, roll out the space heaters, and are grateful for the foresight of a home warranty purchase.<br />
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The Cherokee (our one and only vehicle) has had a long string of Things Going Wrong. And it's been fixed, up and running, only to have something else Go Wrong. Radiator replaced. Then the heads crack. O2 sensor fails. Thermostat needs replaced. Ad nauseum. But each Thing gets taken care of. <br />
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Until recently. The poor Cherokee has pretty much been parked since the beginning of December. We've had spare vehicles due to the generosity of my parents loaning us one of theirs while they've been gone. However, they come back for good in a few days. Pretty sure they're going to want their vehicles back.<br />
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So we made the decision to put all of our house projects on hold and buy another vehicle. With the kiddos getting older, it's been more and more difficult to juggle the schedules with one family vehicle.<br />
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Lots of research. Lots of discussion. Breaking the 9 year old's heart because we told him no on the Ferrari. And the Delorean. And the Batmobile. (Okay, fine. The last one was my own heartbreak.) All of that in hand, we went shopping. As a family. That's a new kind of torture, right there! We were all, however, rather well behaved.<br />
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Ended up with a car that was nowhere on our research radar. Hadn't even looked at them because we knew they were way over our budget. But this one wasn't. It's pretty much what I would have asked for if I would have asked. And I spent a great deal of time last night second guessing our purchase. Why? Because it seemed too good to be true.<br />
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So here's my question...why is it so easy to accept the bad stuff that happens, but not the good? I know we prayed about this decision. I know God has been faithful in our lives through every single lousy thing we've had to deal with. So why do I have such a hard time accepting that this was a gift?<br />
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Increasingly, it's become obvious that our daughter's anxiety is far greater than "Oh, she's just shy," or "She's such a little worrier." And it's become equally obvious that we are unequipped to deal with it on our own. <br />
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This week has been one of the more trying ones on the books so far. Morning, afternoon, and night time meltdowns. Then, we finally figure out that there have been bathroom accidents while at school and she hasn't told anyone. Not full wetting of clothes, but enough to cause discomfort and further her anxiety throughout the day.<br />
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Classmates mocking her for the gap caused by her missing two top teeth. Something she was so joyful over. Now her 1st grade yearbook picture has her with a half smile so the gap won't show. <br />
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She was, just this week, notified she was identified for the gifted program due to her high aptitude in math. She's crazy smart! The middle of the week, she came home in tears.<br />
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<i>They were making fun of me because I'm smart. They said it was stupid to like math.</i><br />
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Oh, sweet girl. I didn't realize it was possible for the mean kids to continue breaking my heart this far out of elementary school.<br />
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A few months ago the tears were because she wore her beloved Spiderman shirt.<br />
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<i>They kept saying girls can't like Spiderman.</i><br />
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That one, at least, had a happy outcome. She's made the best of friends with another girl in her class who loves Batman.<br />
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She no longer wears her favorite winter hat because there are children who knock it off of her on the playground.<br />
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I know we cannot be the only family left teaching kindness. But there are days when it certainly feels like it.<br />
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<i>I don't want to go to school! What if I have another bad day?</i><br />
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<i>But what if you have an amazing day?</i><br />
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<i>It doesn't go that way for me.</i><br />
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Last night when she was adamant about not going to her dance class, I felt myself slowly accepting that her anxiety levels are above the normal for a wee 7 year old girl. Even a high spirited, crazy brilliant one.<br />
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Some of her stories, once we talked them over with her teacher, end up being built up in her anxious mind to more than they are in reality. Others? Her's is the true account. The first, however, gives us a clearer picture of the power of her anxiety. And her own powerlessness to not let it control her.<br />
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So, I find myself reaching out to experts and other knowledgeable sources. Sorting through my own anxiety issues, I'm poorly equipped to help her. Even now, however, I'm hesitant to talk to anyone about my own fears for my daughter. Fearful of the lack of concern. Fearful of the eyerolls and lack of support.<br />
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<i>She'll grow out of it. Stop hovering. Every child goes through stuff. </i><br />
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But she's not every child. She's <i>my</i> child.<br />
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She was ever so sweet not to mention how very tired I looked. Though I could read it in her eyes. She asked how we were.<br />
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We're all right.<br />
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All things considered?<br />
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Yeah. All things considered.<br />
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In the past this is where a well meaning acquaintance would opine that in the Grand Scheme Big Picture of Things, we were really quite well off. Attempt to show me a little perspective. The thing is, I have a rather healthy perspective. Yes, there are families sorting through far worse circumstances than us. There are also families sailing right along...no disease, no disabilities, no anything that robs them of their sleep. <br />
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A Wise Person once wrote that telling someone they shouldn't be discouraged because there are people in far worse circumstances is like telling someone they can't be joyful because there are people far more happy than they. This is our Hard. This is the path <i>we</i> are walking, living, breathing. Yes, someone else is dealing with something far worse but that their Hard, their path.<br />
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But the truth is, no matter how healthy my perspective, the bags under the eyes remain.<br />
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Rounding out my year with the thing I did just for me. A weekend spent with three amazing and wonderful friends...no children, no husbands. Just us. </div>
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The ocean is healing, even in the December cold. </div>
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2014. Summed up. </div>
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Turns out, I'm not. But what I am is a 43 year old woman raising two high-spirited, high-achieving children, married to a doctor's note carrying batcrap crazy husband, and working three jobs (well, one part time and two free lance, done from home but still with obligations and people paying me jobs). The symptoms kind of overlapped. Like when, a few years ago, my doctor was convinced I had mono but the tests all came back negative, and I reminded him I had two young children. Apparently he wasn't the first doctor to mistake Mommy Fatigue for mono.<br />
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For so long now I've been functioning in Survival Mode. Making sure everyone around me is taken care of, ignoring my own needs. I'm slowly taking steps (with the support of this amazing little family and equally amazing friends) to fix that. Baby steps. But still Steps. Because I shouldn't allow myself to be exhausted to the point of mimicking chronic diseases or major hormonal changes.<br />
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Welcome to 2015. And I still don't have my flying car. Pretty pissed about that.<br />
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20 years ago I met this <a href="http://iaimtomisbehave.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">Boy</a>. And he took my breath away. I knew then that'd I'd be with him for Forever.</div>
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19 years ago we went on our first "date". It was my squadron's annual Christmas party. One by one, our friends deserted us and we ended up alone and talking (Yes, talking...our children will read this one day!) way past dawn.</div>
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16 years ago we stood together in the courtyard of the Cathedral of Seville and vowed to love and cherish each other for Forever.</div>
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Gosh, I do love an adventure! I'm in for another 20 years. Because he is the Han to my Leia, the 10 to my Rose, the Link to my Zelda, the Mal to my Inara. My Always. </div>
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Dorihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17258322944946475959noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3467822147586631355.post-54045243485726184802014-07-01T21:35:00.000-04:002015-01-07T21:36:31.287-05:00Just a dream...My sister asked me for one stand out, amazing moment from our trip. I couldn't do it. I couldn't name just one.<br />
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And now? It's like it was just a dream.<br />
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Sitting out in the backyard tonight, a warm summer breeze blowing, city lights outshining the stars...it was hard to imagine that just a week and a half ago I was standing out in the middle of the Serengeti, wrapped in a blanket, looking up at the Southern Cross and gasping with delight at the falling stars.<br />
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Bougainvillea is abundant and colorful...</div>
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Only the natives are capable of scaling the coconut tree...</div>
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The Indian Ocean is unlike their known Atlantic is so, so many ways...</div>
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Mommy's feet, however, are happiest covered in Indian Ocean sand.</div>
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Still jetlagged loopy. So we're headed to the beach in the morning...a day in the sun to reset our body clocks. Then a few weeks to enjoy this amazing adventure as a family.<br />
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Lots of pictures and stories will be coming. But tonight? We rest.<br />
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I was approached by a friendly representative from Blauer about the possibility of trying out a pair of their boots. However, since my footwear of choice leans more towards Chucks and flipflops and less towards tactical boots, my partner in this crazy life got the honors. And a shiny pair of boots. He's taken the time to test drive them for a spell and share his findings...</div>
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<b>Blauer 8" Blitz Boot (Waterproof)</b></div>
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Although I haven't done this on the blog before, I have been asked to provide a product review for a tactical boot. As an initial disclaimer (and to keep the FCC happy), the boots were provided to me free of charge, but I have received no other compensation for this review. </div>
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Product review: The <a href="http://www.blauer.com/" target="_blank">Blauer</a> Blitz 8" Waterproof Boot</div>
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Product description from Blauer: <span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16.200000762939453px;">Blitz</span><sup style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">®</span></sup><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16.200000762939453px;"> is the ultimate in public safety footwear, combining the best boot technology with the BOA</span><sup style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">®</sup><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16.200000762939453px;"> lacing system. Premium waterproof full grain leather and suede with a waterproof membrane stand up to the elements and keep you looking professional. Rubber heel cage gives added durability and ankle stability. Compression molded EVA midsole and molded polyurethane insole with GEL heel cushion mean extra comfort during long shifts. Puncture resistant midsole board keeps your feet protected from nails and other debris when you need it. </span></span></div>
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<span class="s7">Additional descriptors: </span> These boots meet the criteria for "lightweight tactical boot," being more than an athletic shoe or "casual" boot but much less than a mountaineering or hiking boot. The model I wore had the 8" ankle support upper, so I would generally limit my personal use of this type of boot to tactical/work wear, as opposed to crossing over into "daily" or "casual" wear for my normal needs. Based on my experience I would feel comfortable wearing or suggesting these boots for daily law enforcement type wear, for use in training courses or scenarios and the like. I would not recommend them for prolonged hikes, ruck marches, or anything carrying a significant load (although they are not intended or recommended for this either). </div>
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Evaluator: I am a law enforcement officer with over a decade experience, working full time on a bomb squad with several collateral duties; prior to this I have a lengthy period of military service. I am of average height and weight for an American male, although I have large and somewhat wide feet. I tend to be relatively picky about my footwear, and rather hard on boots - there are certain brands and models I strongly advocate, and others I avoid due to this. This is my first experience with the Blauer brand of boots. I also have arthritis and foot issues, following my years of work, which can also affect my comfort issues in boots. I also have a past ankle injury which leads to my expectations of ankle support from a higher-cut boot. In terms of a "lightweight" boot of this style I would expect one to two year's worth of service prior to replacement, with anything under a year being disappointing and anything over two being exceptional. </div>
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Evaluation conditions: I wore these boots for just over two weeks of duty, including "general" daily activities such as patrol, bomb response calls, tactical training, administrative functions and the like, as well during a week of range instruction duty where I was on my feet for at least eight hours consistently daily. Movements ranged from standing for prolonged times, to walking, to short periods of running and dynamic activity. Weather conditions were typical mid-Atlantic early summer, with temperatures ranging from the 70's to the 90's, moderate to high humidity, and several days of heavy rain (and the resulting mud/wet ground afterwards). Terrains covered included indoors, pavement, level grass/outside, and moderately rough terrain. No attempts were made to conduct technical climbing, mountaineering or cold weather exposure, nor to conduct a prolonged run in the boots. In effect, these boots were tested under the conditions an "average" officer might encounter during this time of year. Socks worn were of a merino wool type throughout the test, by varied manufacturers and with various thicknesses. On significant change from my "normal" patterns is that I did not alternate these boots - normally I try not to wear the same pair two days in a row, so as to prolong the lifespan of the boots, as well as giving them time to breathe and dry when needed. The Blauer Blitz boots were worn consistently for each of these duty days, with only my weekend periods giving them a break.</div>
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Modifications: The sole modifications made to these boots was after the first week I replaced the provided insoles with an aftermarket brand, and I applied a treatment/shine creme to the smooth leather for work appearances. This is in no way a critique of the insoles, as I end up doing this with every pair of boots I own due to the aforementioned foot issues - but I also wanted to at least give the boots some testing with the provided product. The provided insoles by Blauer were on par with similar insoles used by most quality manufacturers, and for many users should provide adequate comfort and support. </div>
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Initial observations: As a whole, the boots are again comparable to many other "duty" boots in this category, with a plain toe, a moderately aggressive tread, and a comfortable upper. The most significant difference is the use of the "BOA" lacing system to fasten the boots. In effect, this consists of a braided steel cable (coated with a black synthetic) which is then tightened or loosened by a ratchet system at the top of the boot. The intent is to provide a faster method of donning or removing the boot, as well as eliminating issues such as dangling or broken laces and the like. This system has been used successfully in sports, tactical and other applications for closure/adjustment systems, and from my exposure is durable and reliable. However, I personally had some dislike with using it in a boot, which I will address below.</div>
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The overall fit of the boots was excellent. The size was "true" to my normal footwear, as opposed to certain other brands which tend to run small. In particular, the boot has a very generous forefoot/toe area, as opposed to being narrow or pinching. This added significantly to my comfort level in the boots. They were light enough that I could perform my daily activities without feeling like I had weights on my foot, but heavy enough I had no issues conducting tactical entries or other movements requiring a boot instead of an athletic shoe.</div>
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No durability issues were noted in the time I wore these boots (admittedly limited for purposes of this review). No issues with scuffing, scratching or other damage to the smooth leather was noted, and the boots held a moderate shine well. I did not attempt to achieve a "boot camp" mirror polish on these boots, but the leather seems capable of taking it. The soles and midsoles both held up to all use without issues, no separation was noted at any point. Stitching appeared solid, and again no separation issues were observed. The BOA lacing system had no failures during this period, no wear was noted on the cables, and the plastic dial experienced no problems. In all, I fully expect these boots to provide one to two years of normal use under my conditions. </div>
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Critiques: Functionally, the BOA system on the boot does not please me fully. Yes, it is extraordinarily fast and easy to put the boot on, twist the dial to tighten it, or to pull the dial loose and pull the boot off at the end of the day. Similarly, the system adjusts well to different sock thicknesses, and allows you to easily tighten the boots if needed throughout the day. It certainly had none of the issues of stretch, breakage, or adjustment that traditional laces have. I expected to feel pressure points from the thin metal cables, but experienced none in my use.</div>
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However, it is a "one speed" system for want of better words. From my past experiences outdoors, I am used to tailoring my boot laces as needed to my foot structure and activities - I have one foot with a bunion I like to put less pressure on for example. When doing a lot of walking, particularly in hilly areas, I might want to adjust my levels of ankle support or foot tightness over what I'd do when standing on stable ground. The BOA system is limited to "make it tighter or make it looser" as a whole, with the structure of the lacing system not allowing for adjustments to individual areas of the boot/foot combination. This would be an issue for me if I was considering a boot, but certainly may not be for all users. I will also note that it is NOT a "failure" of the design in my review - rather, it would be a significant issue if I was looking at a boot for more outdoor or dynamic activities. This may also be something that is a "non-event" as I wear them further, but I must bring it up out of fairness.</div>
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Overall evaluation: Despite this one concern, I would have no issues with recommending this boot for "average" use provided the end user understood this limitation. The boots are very comfortable, they are durable, and they provide a professional appearance for officers. The price point is certainly reasonable for what is provided. The Blauer Blitz boots were far more comfortable than similar "Magnum," "5.11," "Bates," and other brands with similar models, and appeared to be at least as durable if not more so. If you're looking for a good duty-type boot for daily wear I would certainly consider the Blauer line as a possibility.</div>
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I gather fabric I had been staring at for a few days, my trusted peasant dress pattern, and supplies. Spreading everything out on the floor, imagining the final dress in my mind.<br />
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"Mommy!"<br />
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It's just me. Again.<br />
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She can't sleep. Just one more lullaby. And another goodnight kiss?<br />
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"Love you, baby girl."<br />
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"Love you, Mommy...good night!"<br />
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Back downstairs, I look at the sewing project strewn across the floor. I get it cut out, but I no longer have the heart or motivation to sit down at the sewing machine.<br />
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I'm beat down. Worn out. Done.<br />
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Last Thursday, himself left for the bi-annual NASCAR duty week. That same day, I dealt with yet another crisis at the boy's school. A phone call with the principal. Never, ever a happy day, that.<br />
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Saturday morning, the girl woke us all up with a pre-dawn puke show. By that evening, she was running a fever.<br />
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Sunday night, the boy followed suit. As did Himself, who never made it beyond the bathroom for next 18 hours.<br />
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Monday morning, I called into work. If my calculations are correct, I've already burned my personal hours for the school year.<br />
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This morning, a quiet battle to get the girl off to school whilst her brother slept on. A quick trip to the school to pick up homework for the boy and I made it to work only forty minutes late. Only to have one of our kiddos projectile vomit all over the floor.<br />
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So tonight, he spoke in a tone that didn't sit well and I snapped. I've been holding it all together. Working through a mountain of soiled bedding, sanitizing floors and bathrooms. Making sure everyone is getting their fluids, eating, getting stronger, healthy. Back on schedules. <br />
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And it was an off tone that broke me.<br />
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The sewing project can be finished tomorrow. Spring decided to take a break, so the girl can wait a day or two for a new sundress.<br />
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Both kiddos are headed back to school tomorrow.<br />
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Himself is headed back to work.<br />
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My hour and a half between me leaving work and kiddos' bus arriving returns to being sacred. Because I need to stop giving off sparks. For all of our health.<br />
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Okay. That was fun. Ready for the "lamb" part of the month now. </div>
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Happy valentine's day, Beloved!<br />
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